ehh

people think I'm confident. I disagree. I spent the last two hours comparing myself to everyone on my newsfeed and it's the weirdest thing. it's not some glaring flaws bothering me but just a general sense of inadequacy. I don't feel dumb or ugly or fat or wrong. just weird, excluded, outside and poor. I feel like I have missed a lot in life thanks to lack of disposable income and social graces. I can never quite mesh with most people and it ruins everything. I wish I could isolate and fix the fucking problem.